It grieves me to know that you may be one of the nearly 400 Iowans who take their life each year. Your pain, disappointment and hopelessness is a tragedy that needs to be addressed. No doubt you've tried to make sense of what is going on in your life. Do you always feel sad, depressed, lonely? Do you believe the world would be better off without you in it? No job, no friends, no future? Let's talk, can we?
I'd like to help you, if you will let me. I can't take away the pain. Anyone who tells you they can is lying to you. Pain is part of life. No one is immune. The thing is, when you feel like ending it all, a lot of it has to do with your inability to see any other way to get relief. And that is just what it is — an inability. It is not reality. It is not true.
Given the chance, many people want to care about you. They want you to succeed. Problem is, they don't want to believe you could be so down and out. They think you are just having some rough sledding. If they only knew! Maybe you've tried to tell them and it just didn't feel right. Maybe they looked and sounded like they didn't have the time. After trying your best, maybe you just gave up. That's not a crime. Don't be thinking about a long term solution to a short term problem. Suicide is forever. You have more going for you than you know!
Here's the deal: Many of the people who want to help you don't even know you. But they know the kinds of stuff you are going through. They have the time to listen. They want to hear your story. And they will do everything they can to help you. I want you to get in touch with one or both of the following: Your Life Iowa (phone 1-855-581-8111). Tell them what you are going through. Be honest. Listen, OK? There is also a blog-style website: www.IAMincontrol.org — try it, please! You are not alone. People want to help. Please allow them to help you, OK?
Bill Kersting, Spencer